The Need for Change/Remaining the Same


Have you ever felt the need to want to take off to somewhere new? Not just for a vacation but to be amongst different (positive) people and different (positive) things. Where I live we’re in the middle of our coldest season and part of this feeling I’m having is partially due to cabin fever and the other part is due to mental growth.

It doesn’t help much that at work I’ve had conversations with several (like-minded) co-workers and we’ve agreed that up to 75% of the employees within our department are superficial, manipulative and otherwise ‘unloved’- being that they’ve got serious issues they’ve harbored most of their lives and have cultivated them into monsters. Whereas most adults would try to strive to take positive steps in a good direction, they become emotional vacuums and create issues on a regular basis.

Trust me, it’s messed up. Hopefully you’re fortunate enough to not have a clue about the things I’ve mentioned. I’d like to think I’m in the most mentally obscure region in the planet. I’d like to believe these kind of people do not reside anywhere else.

Anyways, this leads me to wonder about life elsewhere. Not a perfect environment but a stable environment where not just my home life is happy but work and every other daily interaction is likely to be a pleasant one. Life is short as it is and I find it disrespectful to waste time on such unfavorable negativity. I’m dying to stay true to my otherwise generally happy-ole-self but in the process: be around people who are satisfied and accept themselves for the way they are and thus can spend time helping others to live happier, more fulfilling lives. To grow in that manner. This way of living is something I’ve always wanted to be a part of. To remove narcissism and the ‘selfie’ aspect from the ‘consistent’ to ‘rare’ aspect of our lives.

To say that my life is more than about myself. Beyond giving life as in motherhood, but to put life into things.

You’ll have to excuse my ramblings today- ha! Time for me to scoot off to the job (pray for me?).